To Go or Not to Go?

67732_170443929633222_7912586_nI turned 48 last week. Nothing special about that. I also returned to college last week. Yes, college. Now, my dilemma is … do I want to continue.

Ask a hundred people and I’m sure I would get a hundred different answers as to what I should do. The problem I am having is that my heart is not really in it. Yes, it would be great to finish something I started back in the early 2000s, back when I was going to college to be a high school math teacher. Then, my goal was to teach and coach football at the high school from which I graduated in 1985.

diploma-152025_640Just a Piece of Paper

You can see by the time lag between high school graduation and the time I finally got my butt in a college classroom that I was never completely sold on the whole college thing. After that those initial 15 years, I thought I would give it a shot. I made it through a couple of years and then my daughter was born and work became more important and I discontinued my quest for the degree.

I have always considered myself smart and thought a college degree was nothing more than a piece of paper. How many college graduates do you know that might be book smart, but are still basically dumb as stumps when it comes to common sense and life in general?

Who Needs College? 

I have done fairly well in life without a degree. I have been a real estate broker, a sports editor, and now work in finance.  As a sports editor, I was awarded back-to-back state awards for best sports section for our size newspaper. I had no experience in the news biz, but what I did have is the love and desire to excel. That was my favorite job, but the job that paid me the least amount of money. It allowed me to utilize my creative side, while attending sporting events, interacting with students, and doing plenty or writing and photography. It wasn’t work to me.

Exploring the Creative Side

My current job in finance, is a JOB. A job, though, that would pay for me to go back to school. The problem is that it has to be work related. Hard for me to go to school for something that I am not really thrilled about … we’re talking microeconomics and manageridancing-dave-minion-510835_640al accounting. Zzzzzz. Zzzzzz. Not something I would choose if it were up to me. I like to express my creative side. I would love to go back to school to pursue some type of degree in Art or something with computer animation, etc.

My parents took me to the Phoenix Institute of Technology when I was younger. I still remember them showing us drawings that their students had done. Many of those same students were now working for Disney as animators. That would be fabulous. Why I didn’t pursue that, I will never know. I think it had to do with a girlfriend at the time, but that’s a whole nother story.

Decision, Decisions

I have not dropped my classes as of yet, but I am leaning that way. I think I could use a little bit more time to think about which direction I want to go. Do I want to pursue a degree for someone else, or should I take courses more in tune to what I want to do, even though I would have to pay for it myself?

The other issue I see is that at 48, my thoughts have turned to retirement, not going back to school. I finally have a house I like with a big yard that takeelders-401296_640s a lot of work. I enjoy my time at home with my wife and dogs. I had thought if I really wanted to occupy some of my spare time, I could volunteer for a local charity.

I know this blog has gone all over the place, but that is where my mind is at this point. I am not sure where to turn. I don’t want to disappoint anyone and I don’t want to make a mistake one way or the other. I also want to be happy and do what is right for me.

What do you guys think?

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