Tick, Tick, Tick

When the calendar turns to April, I will be able to see my 50th birthday on the calendar page. As that joyous (yeah, right) occasion approaches, I feel my life is in turmoil, at least in my head.

I have so many things that I want to do, but not sure what the right thing to do is. I would love to buy a vacation/retirement home out west, but not sure how to go about it or where to start. I have read somewhere that says you should not buy a home like that without paying cash for it. Well, unless I am buying a dollhouse, that isn’t going to happen. I also read about how much you pay for your home to the bank in the interest over the life of your loan. They said it’s basically like you are buying three houses. One for you, and two for the bank after you pay them the interest. So, then I get thinking that we should put all available money toward our current house to pay that off as quickly as possible.

With retirement looming in just over 15 years, time is running out. Good decision making is critical.

My heart says go west young man. I know with all my being, I want to leave Indiana for the wild, wild west. I am tired of Indiana and it’s lack of anything interesting. If I live to be 85, I greatly look forward to being able to enjoy the beautiful scenery that the west affords.

Now if I can just figure out if we can afford it.


Does it Get Better?

In my 48 years on this planet, I cannot remember a time when I have been this confused and unsettled. On the outside, I look like any other average Joe, but on the inside, I am a whirlwind of emotions. My emotions include sadness, anger, dread, despair, incompleteness, disappointment, and self-loathing to name just a few. I know, it sounds pretty dark in there. It’s not as dark as it sounds, but that doesn’t make it any easier.

It’s Not Just Me?

I read an article today about midlife crisis, which hit home for me on a lot of its points. I guess I was glad to hear that this kind of thing is common, but it doesn’t help me put my life back where I want it to be … in a happy place.

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Heaven Not as Soggy as Advertised

It took me two attempts get up to Hurricane Ridge in Olympic National Park, but it was worth it!

Finally, the weather, at least in the Midwest, has started to show some signs of kicking Old Man Winter in the sack. With the warmer weather comes shorts, flip-flops, and VACATIONS!

Getting There is Half the Fun
We’ve all seen the Vacation movies by now with Clark, Ellen, and Cousin Eddie. Thankfully, not all vacations end up with our families hauling an old aunt cross country in the family truckster or losing a sex tape in Paris. Most of our vacations are not that exciting, but fun nonetheless.

Funny how different vacation spots appeal to different people. My sister likes the typical beach vacation. Hot, sand, and alcohol. Others consider going to a cold, snowy area to ski or snowmobile a delight. For me, give me the outdoors, mountains, trees, and water.

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